Posts Tagged ‘Sexual intercourse’

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A Glimpse of My Fantasy.

January 24, 2011

Have I gotten to meet my new Domme yet? Not quite. My wife and I had quite the session last night and after, when asked if that was Belle or my wife, she simply replied, “A little of both.”

I had gone to bed, being on the early shift, I have to force myself sometimes. I couldn’t sleep. So I was lying in bed, texting my wife who was in the living room rocking our youngest to sleep. I was asking her about Belle and we were figuring out some specifics. At one point she asked what I was hoping for from Belle. I rattled off a short list of some of the acts that I had been fantasizing about and she thanked me for the suggestions. By this point, I was really wanting some riding crop action. More than I have ever craved it before. I relayed this and she agreed.

I retrieved the crop and she led me to the living room. It was a bit akward at first, but in no time I was without pants, and on my hands and knees. It was quite cold in there and that had to account for at least some of my shaking.

I got about a dozen swats on the ass before she started running the crop between my legs. This is what I was hoping for. I had been out of the device for several hours due to a little pain but I was over that and hard as a rock.

Please tell me to lie on my back! Please tell me to lie on my back!

“Lie down on your back.”

Yes!

I quickly abliged and my shaking increased. A couple of light swats on my legs led to some hesitation. I could tell what she wanted and it was exactly what I wanted. I dared to ask her.

“You want to don’t you?”

“Yes.”

“Then do it.”

I recieved several light swats to my balls. It didn’t hurt and only made me want more. I got more. Harder. It stung, but I loved it! My cock was next. God it felt so good!

She then grabbed my cock with her hand and gave it several hard strokes. The precum oozing from the tip was gathered and placed in my mouth. I quickly sucked it off her finger. I’ve turned in to quite the cum slut. 🙂

“Do you want more?”

“Yes.”

“What do you want?”

“More.”

“More what?”

“More cum.”

“Who’s cum.”

“My cum.”

She jerked me And once again I got to suck my salty fluid from her fingers.

Before I knew it, my entire cock was in her mouth. Not having had a blow job in a while, I was set to enjoy. Instead of sucking me, she sank her teeth into my cock near the base. Holy shit! She moved up a short distance and bit me again. Moved up some more and again until her lips were wrapped around the head of my penis. One more bite! I could barely take it, but I would have gladly taken it again and again.

“I’m going to fuck you now.”

No argument from me!

She removed her panties and straddled me. By this time my cock was so hard that much of the sensitivity was gone. This didn’t stop her pleasure. It felt so good to be inside her warm pussy. I was relaxed and enjoying the sensation when I got slapped across the face hard! I couldn’t believe it! She had done that to me before but never with that intensity.

She rode me for quite a while, making me tell her my fantasies. She stopped me briefly and held my mouth open so she could spit in it. So fucking hot!

Before long she came. From my end it didn’t seem to be earth shattering, but if I have learned anything, any orgasm is to be cherished.

She collapsed on me briefly and we cuddled. As she got up to get ready for bed, she looked me in the eye.

“We can do this.”

She smiled.

“Well we knew you could do this. I meant I think I can too.”

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Re-inventing Belle

January 23, 2011

As Jnuts noted in the previous blog, I am going to try to meet him half way in his desire to dabble in a D/S relationship.  Those of you who have read some of earlier blogs will understand why this is a difficult thing for me.  I struggle with the power that MC gives me, so being the Domme in our relationship is a huge step.    I used my Fetlife profile to establish a persona for Belle……

I am Belle, the alter ego of a very vanilla, white collar professional turned SAHM. She is uncomfortable addressing some of her husbands more kinky desires, and that is where I step in. She was struggling with his desire to be locked in chastity and denied. She felt bad telling him no and teasing then denying. I do not. I don’t have the hang ups of past relationships that messed with her head. He wants smacked around a little while wearing a dog collar? I am game. He wants pissed on while I shower? Sure, won’t hurt me at all. It will be about me when I want it to be, not when she thinks it should be. I am not into receiving pain, but I can and will dish it out. He always said he wanted her to be the bitch she was at work in the bedroom. Well I am here now. Let’s hope he realized what he was wishing for.

Jnuts has not met Belle yet, but he has received several messages from her, and will be meeting her soon.

Belle

 

 

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a real life break?

January 7, 2011

Real life has a way of really messing with your fun.  Jnuts and I had been having some issues, mostly focused around what I have begun referring to as the “chastity circle”.  I don’t play enough and keep him interested and worked up, he doesn’t help me out around the house more because he isn’t in the heightened state, therefore I don’t play, ect.  It is a tough one to break, but because we both were invested in MC and want to see it work for us, we decided we had to.

I have been against chastity contracts since we began investigating MC.  To me it makes it seem like our sex life is a business arrangement, but now I see the need to have needs and expectations in a written format.  I pledged to have at least 2 play sessions per week.  This may not seem like much to many of you, but given our lives it is going to take some work some weeks.  At this point that is the end of the agreement.  We both feel that this will break the cycle that we are currently in, and take us back to the point where we both saw the  benefits of MC.

That was last week…..Jnuts was locked and things appeared to be improving.  Then something very strange happened.  His step brother, whom we have very little contact with but is extremely close with his step dad and mom, was arrested and admitted to sexually abusing his 14 year old daughter multiple times.  The whole family is turned upside down, we are contacting people multiple times a day due to risk of hurting themselves over this, and we are all pretty  much in shock.  Last night when Jnuts came home from work, he asked to be unlocked.  He said he felt “dirty” wearing the device and anything having to do with sex.  I quickly agreed, because to be honest I felt the same way.  Pretty sad how someone who you are not close with yet tied to can change your personal life so much.  We are not sure when we will continue with MC, but we know that we will.

Belle

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Anticipation

December 6, 2010

December 4th arrived right on schedule….the question is did Jnuts get to cum?

As the previous posts have indicated, it has been a very crazy chastity cycle for us.  The last week was especially bad.  Our 17 month old had a stomach flu which had gone through our extended family, so I knew that she was not going to be the only one in the house to come down with it.  The question was when.  Thursday morning I woke up, sicker than I can ever remember  being in my life.  Jnuts had to train new hires that day, and the other supervisor was already scheduled off so he had to go in.  I did what any other self respecting adult does.  I called my Mom.  She took most of the day off and picked up the girls.  I remember telling Jnuts that I hoped he did not get this flu, that I thought it felt worse than 22 hours of labor with no pain meds.  Luckily it only lasted about 8 hours and I was pretty much fine by evening.

Friday Jnuts said he felt fine all day.  No problems, and I began to pack and get the girls ready for me leaving them for the first time ever.  About 10:00 that night he says “I don’t feel good, I am going to bed”.  I stop packing and cooking the food for the party that we were going to the hotel for, make some arrangements for others going to cover what we were responsible for bringing.  Throughout the night he gets up several times, but is not sick.

10:30 Sat morning he decides we are going to go anyways, he appears to be at the back end of the flu without having to suffer through all the nasty stuff.  I run around, scrambling to get myself ready, the food and gifts ready, and the house ready for my MIL to come spend the night.  We were supposed to leave at noon, it was about 1 before we were on the road.  As I dropped the girls off at my Mom’s for a few hours (until MIL could get there) the anxiety of leaving my babies hit me.  I have a little bit of an attachment disorder (ok, more than a little bit) and I cried at the thought of leaving my babies overnight.  I was still so looking forward to it, but still had a little issue.

Jnuts, although he wants to go, is still not feeling well.  He slept a large portion of the way there, and we did discuss whether or not it should the night for his orgasm.  I felt bad that he wasn’t feeling well and didn’t want to “waste it”, and he didn’t want to “top from the bottom”.  Finally we decided to leave it as “what ever happens, happens”.  This is one of the reasons that I do not like to have a set date.  Anything can happen, and my guilt makes postponing it difficult.  As it was Jnuts was out of his device, he had asked to take it off because he felt so sick and the body aches were overwhelming.  We continue to have some minor chafing issues around his balls as well, which thanks to Atone we have realized is an issue with the gap now that the ring is smaller.  Part of the whole day was the fact that we were going to be at a party with a large number of our friends that we only see a few times a year, and none of them know about our chaste life.   We had bought me a Little Miss Keyholder shirt to wear, and he was looking forward to people asking about it in that sick, twisted way.  With him not in his device that was kinda lost.  About 10 minutes before we went down to the party, he decided he felt well enough to wear the device, so that was a big bonus!

By about 11, he was falling asleep at the party, so we headed back to our room.  We excused our selves from the party, and curled up in bed.  At this point he was still locked, and was exhausted.  It was wonderful to be in a room without the girls, but we were both almost asleep.

I began to stroke him a little, playing with the small parts of exposed skin between the bars of the jailbird.  I expected it to relax him a little more and put him to sleep.  I did not bring any of the toys in from the car, and he was still locked.  This is not at all how this big night was supposed to end.  He asked to be unlocked, so that I could play a little more.  As soon as the cage was off, his cock sprung to life.  I knew that he was feeling better, since earlier in the day we did try a little play and there was no reaction at all.  At this very moment I did not want to be a keyholder.  I did not want to control his orgasm.  I wanted my husband to do what he wanted, what he felt up to.  All it took was me telling him it was now on his terms.  He was up and between my legs before I could have changed my mind if I wanted to.  The sex was slow and hard, he knows what it takes to make me cum.  He appeared to edge himself several times this way, having to stop for a second several times to regain his composure.  He then asked me to get on top of him for a few minutes, which I did.  I prefer missionary position, but I can cum easily on top of him, which I did.  I then told him it was his turn, and he took control, hard and fast.  As I whispered in his ear that there was no one in the room and he did not have to be quiet, he came.  The orgasm appeared to be long, but he did not make a sound.   After wards he did say that it wasn’t painful like past ones after being denied.

As we laid there after wards, we both commented that we were glad this cycle was over, and while it didn’t end the way either one of us had envisioned it, it ended in a way that was truly us.

Belle

 

 

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Strange cycle

December 3, 2010

The title of the blog says it all….

First we sent the JB back to MM because it just wasn’t right.  Then I had issues with my BC pills, which finally seem to be settling down.  Then our oldest had the flu, then I got it.  There has very little T&D, and even less playtime.  I feel very bad for Jnuts, and am looking forward to starting the cycle over.  Tomorrow is the set date, and we are supposed to have our hotel night away from the girls (first one ever).  As long as Jnuts doesn’t come down  with the flu we should have a juicy blog when we get home :).

Belle

 

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Keyholder anxiety

November 29, 2010

Well, the big day is fast approaching.  I must admit that I am beginning to feel somewhat anxious that the weekend may not work out as I have it planned.  I think this why I don’t like having a date set for orgasm that Jnuts knows about, but there is no way that we are not going to have sex with orgasm the first night away from our kids ever.  Therefore the date is known by both of us, and although I have promised to make it special, (this is the longest he has gone) I am afraid that it will fizzle out.  Dev and Ab are constantly in the back of my mind, having gone through the same thing with his first release.  I have discussed this growing anxiety with Jnuts, and he assures me that as long as he cums he will be fine.  Yet that doesn’t seem ok to me.  I want it to be special for him, he has gone just over a month, by far the longest without orgasm for him in almost 20 years.

We are seeing the mental effects of not cumming for Jnuts now.  Not sure how much of it is not cumming and how much of  it is the anticipation of knowing that it is this weekend.  The whole “home stretch” idea.  He described it last night as almost feeling claustrophobic.   All I could do was stroke him a little and assure him that it was less than a week.  I think some of the issue may be that he is doing this without a device, as we had to send it back for adjustments.  It is supposed to arrive today, so hopefully it fits better and the rest of the week will be easier, with that physical barrier in place.

Belle

 

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Very Thankful for lastnight!

November 25, 2010

Where to start?  Probably the best place would be the 50% off promo email I got from Ambiance.  I sent it to Belle, and got very excited.  Things that are somewhat appealing become very appealing at 50% off!  Browsing the site got me in a bit of a mood.  🙂

I sent Belle a text asking her if we could fuck that night.  It had been about 2 weeks since I had been inside her and I was getting very antsy.  She told me that we probably could.  🙂

I get home from work and it is business as usual.  Belle is still feeling crappy due to her BC induced period.  Despite what she had said earlier, I figured tonight would be a straight to sleep night.  That is ok.  It is a keyholder’s prerogative right?

When we went to bed, her had went for my cock.  Sweet!  I was going to get some after all.

She asked me what was at the top of my list of things she could get at Ambiance.  I honestly didn’t know.  I want so much!  I did confess that when she had been pregnant with our youngest, and while we were abstaining afterwords, I had really wanted a Fleshlight.  She was quite irritated that I never said anything.  Sorry, but we weren’t as open about things back then.  I told her that I had seen videos of women using them on guys and it really turned me on.  This could also be very cool for denial.  Having a Fleshlight and being locked up and not able to use it would be hell.  Not being able to use my hand is bad enough.

By then her had was going to town on me.  She asked me what I was craving right then.  I told her either her mouth or her pussy.  I was very excited!

“Well you aren’t getting either of those tonight.”

I was shocked.  Hearing this was excruciating…in an awesome way. So now what?  If I can’t have either of those, I need to at least get something right?  I really wanted to make her cum.  It had been so long since I was allowed to touch her because of her bleeding and cramping.  I asked her if I could go down on her.

“No.  I really want it but I’m still bleeding.”

By this point I didn’t care.  I wanted her so fucking bad!  To be totally honest, the fact that I had never eaten a woman out when she was on her period kinda excited me even more.

I convinced her.  The next thing I knew I was kissing her pussy like I never had before.  God I wanted it so bad!  Now it was mine!  I wanted something else.  Something she rarely let me do but loved it when I did.  I slowly wet my finger and slipped it inside her, going right for her g-spot.

She moaned.  I’m golden!  I continued to lick her clit as I fingered her hot, wet, heavenly pussy.  God I wanted to put something else in there.

“Is your cock jealous?”

How did she know?

“Yes!”

“You aren’t allowed.”

I continued to finger-fuck her.  Beggers can’t be choosers, and I was enjoying this immensely.

“What aren’t you allowed to do?”

“Cum.”

“Why not?”

“Because you said I can’t.”

“And I control your orgasms?”

“Yes.”

“I want that cock inside of me.  But you can’t cum.  You better not cum, you understand me?”

“Yes!”

I got between her legs.  She informed me that she doesn’t not know how long this is going to be allowed.  It may only be one thrust.  She gave me the ok.  I entered her.  Oh my God!

“Again.”

I thrust inside her again.

“Again. Keep going until I tell you to stop. I can’t wait to fuck you.”

“You are fucking me.”

“Not the kind of fucking I mean.  I want to pound that ass.  I want to get behind you while you are locked up and make you scream.  I’m going to treat you like the slave you want to be.”

Holy shit.  Where did this come from?  I don’t care, I like it!

“Will you fuck my throat?”

“You better believe it!”

By that point, I couldn’t hold on anymore.  I asked if I could stop for a minute, but she said no.  She came.  I almost did.  I thought I went over the edge, but I didn’t.

Wow!

She rolled over and we talked a little bit before going to sleep.  The highlight of that was her expressing her desire to put me in a humbler and fuck my ass.  Good times.